Today. Today is a big day. There's no actual significance to today, and I'll never remember the date, but I'll always remember today.

I'm in my wedding room and it just hit me. We converted our office to the wedding room and it will be a workroom after the big day. But, for right now, it is our wedding room. The room where all things wedding will be and are stored. The room where I will be spending countless hours making everything that goes into a wedding. The room where I'll cry and scream in frustration and sit looking at all the things yet to do feeling like it will never get done. The room I'll run from screaming in joy and yelling at Jesse to see what I just accomplished. The room that will see more tears of joy and anger and desperation than any other room in my house. The room that will hold my entire wedding in it's walls. The room, that if destroyed, would destroy me. The room that will contain all of my hopes and dreams for the big day. The room that will get me through arguments with Jesse. The room that we'll meet in randomly and share a moment of peace and love and hope and joy at what is ahead of us. In this room, I will reign supreme. No one will dare touch anything in here without my prior approval. No one will put anything away without asking me where I'd like it. This is the room that will put my (egotistical, I know, but true) extraordinary organizational skills to the test. Yet, it is still also Jesse's room. A room he will always feel welcome in and will always be comfortable in, for everything in here is a symbol. A symbol of us. Of our undying love to each other. Of our ability and willingness to compromise. Our total desire to have this wedding be a melding of our two lives. Of our likes, loves, families, and friends. For, that is what our wedding is. It's a melding of our separate lives into Our one life. This room is so small, yet it holds so much within its four walls. This is an important room. This is a happy room. This room will only survive for another few months before disappearing forever, never to return. I think I'll cherish it while I can.

Today, I truly begin working in earnest on our DIY wedding. We are doing so many things, that I'm really starting to worry. We're doing favors, rivers through all the tables, head table decorations, a wall of tulle for the ceremony hall's entrance, chair covers, bouquets, bouts, everything. The only non-DIY parts of this are the dresses, tuxes and invites. It's a very daunting task. This will test not only my patience, perseverance, and initiative, but it will also either end in total failure (the wedding looks terrible) or total success. I'm about to put more of myself into one day than I have ever done before.

Jesse and I have withstood the test of many things. This wedding is more than a day to me. I want it to truly be a symbol of our lives. One that shows everyone there what we truly mean when we say "I do, forever and always". I want them to see that we are now one. That we work through everything together. That the love we have for each other isn't the kid love, it's the undying love and affection one has for their life partner and best friend. And, I want them to know that we are together in everything. From the colors (our favorites) to the rivers (we love water) to the favors (Mario coin blocks since we both adore video games) to the simple chair covers we are making to the seating arrangements. We want everyone from each side to get to know each other. Then, our lives truly will be one.